I might have died a little today.  I was notified by New York State that I need to renew my driver’s license.  I’ve been in denial that I needed to renew since I couldn’t when I was in New York a few weeks ago.  Now that I’ve lived in California now for nearly 7 months, providing proof of my residence in New York will be difficult and I’m really not ready to call myself a California resident.

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I’m not ready to give this up yet.

It should be noted that my current driver’s license has been little more than my identification for an excessively long time.  I only learned to drive after college and I’ve had to to take driving lessons two different times because I never used the skill when I passed my test.

In New York, my husband and I only had a car for a short time.  We wound up giving it up because parking in our Brooklyn neighborhood was a nightmare.  We then used Zipcar (an amazing car collective) but I never drove.

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When you don’t have a car…
Photo by Rakka

My current NY license picture is from when I was 26 years old and until I moved to California, it is the honest truth that I had only driven maybe a dozen times in my entire life.  Living in California, I now drive everywhere and sometimes wonder what kept me from driving before.

It could be the NYC MTA Subway system.  It’s extensive, easy and I lived across the street and down the block from 2 of the major subway lines for the last 15 years of my life.

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My heart remains with my MetroCard – it is now and will always stay in my wallet.  No matter what.
Photo by Matia M.

The subway is far from perfect but I miss it.  It was wonderful to ride the Q train and see the Brooklyn and 59th St Bridges when I was back a few weeks ago.  I even got a 7am and a 5pm prosthelytizer on my subway car just to make me feel like I was back home again.  It was both annoying and comforting at the same time.

I really do love my new home and I’m very happy that my family and I made this move to California but there are days like today when I feel like my heart is in New York and my body is in CA.  Sing it for me Janis…